A last post to the year

Clock strikes 11: 59 - December 31st.

Few seconds to go before the year ends and a new one starts. The whole world enjoys to the music and hits the dance floor tapping to the dance numbers one after the other till the music drops. The question is how long will this happy and chilling moment last ? Will the year knocking on my door come with some good news? Will the news channel start reading some good news in the prime time news hour ? Can the year give us 365 such evenings ?

Sadly enough but then this fever of happiness remains just for few minutes or may be seconds. The news channels do not come with any better news than the past year. Governance still remains shaky, Leadership still comes with blurred identity and vision, Values going down the drains, Culture still getting ruined, and so I wonder what calls for a celebration when the clock strikes midnight.

I will come with no resolutions welcoming the new year but just prayers and wishes for a better tomorrow.

With the hope that 1st January will it be a new day - new morning - new hope - new accomplishments and a walk towards a new and beautiful world with Health, Wealth, Happiness, Peace, Contentment, Love and lots of smiles :) I wish all a very Happy and a Blessed year - 2014 !

Last 5 pages of my diary

As I pen down the last 5 pages of my diary, I gather courage to flip back few pages of the year going by. 2013 leaves me with few extremely painful and hard hitting experiences like The Nirbhaya / Damini Case, The Aarushi case, Wars and riots across the world, The Natural Disasters worldwide - flash floods, earthquakes and typhoons / cyclones leaving us with few life threatening experiences.

Looking back makes me sad and leaves me with this despondent thought - how lives can just be lost in a fraction of a second - how vulnerable human kind is in front of the powerful forces around us - how they just paralyze us and we stand helpless :(

I sit on my desk to wonder what should I say to it as a bidding farewell note - Should I thank or Should I charge or Should I allege ?. I just pray that may I never get to meet the families involved in these cases coz I don't know how do I face them and what do I say to them. Should I say - "Life will be fine again" or "Accept Life as it comes" or "There is light after darkness" or "This is Karma and we have to face it" or should i just ignore them, or should i just close my eyes to all this and go ahead to make that hollow or hopeful (depends on how you see it) wish - 'HAPPY NEW YEAR'. 

Thoughts like these leave me blank and my question to life goes deeper. 

At this point I recall the 4 noble truths that Buddha shared which do not refer to ideas so much as much to experience. "Suffering" in Buddhism refers not only to physical and emotional pain, but also to the existential sense that, life on the earth plane, is characterized by inevitable and unavoidable dissatisfaction, failure, pain, disappointment, rejection, yearning, decrepitude and loss. (http://www.longleaf.net).

While I understand the theory of the subject well enough, I wonder is it humanly possible to believe and accept that we have a deep and true buddha-nature in all of us that can be awakened.

What happens when one Monday morning you wake up to realize you are not with YOURSELF ???

Real 'You'        - Hey Hi !

The Big 'I'         - Hi ! Have we met before ?

Real 'You'        - Well :)

The Big 'I'        - Why are you smiling ?

Real 'You'        - Just Like that :)

The Big 'I'         - I don't understand you. Please excuse me, I gotta go.

Real 'You'        - ok .. so where are you going ?

The Big 'I'         - How does it matter to you. 

Real 'You'         -Ok fine I will not disturb you. Be careful my dear.

The Big 'I'         - Thank you and now do u mind excusing me. I am getting late. 

Evening !  

Real 'You'        - Hey Hi !

The Big 'I'         - Again you are here ?

Real 'You'        - Yeah I just thought to check how was your day.

The Big 'I'        - Aaah .. well don't ask. Picked up fights in the traffic, Tough time in Office, 

                        Missed deadlines and now this terrible headache so will you please 

                        excuse me now.

Real 'You'        - Ok my dear .. Take rest. But remember to take me along tomorrow. I may 

                        come to some help yours.